Heavy Hearts


I don't even know where to start with this post. I've lost count of how many times I've called this year "weird" lol. It seems like every month spurs on a new challenge. 

Racism & Black Lives Matter ❤
Right now, the Black Lives Matter Movement is taking center stage. The media is flooded with riots, protests, looting, uncertainty, misinformation, pain, hatred, misunderstanding, anger, with a few sprinkles of happy and uplifting stories.  But overall, the atmosphere has been heavy and gloomy. This image pretty much sums it up my social media feeds. 



My heart has been so heavy this past weekend. I've been been sad, angry, anxious, confused, uncertain...all the things. I've been on social media wanting to stay informed and up to date on everything that is happening in this country and in our own state, but often going down a rabbit hole of sadness, pain, and fear. 

If you need a reminder of what current events I'm referring to, click HERE. This video sums up what's happening and what I'm feeling, better than I could've expressed. 

Time to Step Back and Reassess
Once my anxiety and fear started keeping me from sleeping at night, I stepped away from Social Media for a bit. I needed to just catch my breath and take a moment to refocus and ground myself again. One night I dug myself into prayer and scripture study, and immediately felt the warm comforting confirmation that Heavenly Father was (and is) aware of us and me personally...and that everything would be alright as long as we stay focused on what matters most. I felt it so strongly. 

Come, Follow Me
As our family continued to study the Book of Mormon and use the Come, Follow Me materials, there was no doubt that our loving Heavenly Father prepared a way for us. These are some of the topics that were in our current studies--


This was another confirmation that 
  1. The Come, Follow Me program was inspired and written by divine design!!! 
  2. The Book of Mormon is true and was written for us! 
  3. Heavenly Father loves us. 
  4. Christ loves us. 

Focus
Prayer, scripture study, and healthy conversations have all helped to bring me back to focus. It has helped me to replace my fear with faith, self reflect, and to put more thought and intention behind my actions. I have much work to do personally and I need to do it quickly. 

We are definitely seeing the signs of the times😨 And although the thought of the 2nd Coming can be nerve wrecking, we know we'll be ok. Satan is very powerful, but the Lord is always a step ahead. Ultimately, in this battle between right and wrong, good and evil, Satan and God, we know which side wins. And thaaaaank goodness we're on the winning team!! And I'll keep working hard to stay on the team!

Doesn't mean the upcoming months and years are going to get any easier, but knowing that Heavenly Father has already prepared a way for us to try again, and again, and again, is good enough for me! 

To the rest of this 2020 year, BRINNNGG ITTT!!! We can do hard things. 

Love you. 



Comments

Sui-Jean Fuimaono said…
Amen and amen! 2020 has definitely been helping us separate the wheat from the tares in our lives. You're absolutely right, we are on the right side and we will be fine as long as we do our part :) We've already seen how the Lord has prepared us for these times and he will continue to do so as we press forward with faith xx Love ya sister!
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